it's just ingrained in me...

so tonight, i went out with my aunt (my mom's younger sister and the baby of the four kids, she's also my godmother..and i think we're pretty much the same exact person...cept, she's older than me..)
anyway, so i went out with her and some of her friends from high school that she still talks to and hangs out with pretty regularly. it was a lot of fun..we just had a couple drinks and watched this group of like 3o people all wearing sailor hats that said NKOB (New Kids On the Block) sing karaoke at Acapulco in Santa Clara.

It was really funny...and the collection of people in that group was ridiculously entertaining for a night of karaoke.

We never made it up there to sing...i didn't have nearly as many drinks as it could have possibly taken...but it was a fun night..

but the whole point of this blog i think..is that i just heard a lot about stuff my aunt and mom and them did as teenagers. it sounded like sooo much fun to be a teenager in the 80's.
and i think i've also officially come to the conclusion that some of my "issues" as a person that i've been accused of having...are just naturally ingrained into me.
it's just who i am...
my aunt explained a lot to me tonight that just made complete sense..
first off, there is this thing in our house...we always joke about...
my brother is "god's favorite" as he puts it (and also both my parents angel...he can never do any wrong..ever) and i'm "satan's spawn" (which pretty much means i'm the devil child that always does wrong..AND even when i'm right...i'm wrong...)
but my aunt explained to me..that it was the same way in their household as children the three girls and my uncle..who was apparently (and still quite obviously is, i think) my grandma's (grandparents?) favorite....which just makes me think...
it's exactly the same in our house..and i don't think it's by choice..it's just what my mom was brought up by...and will probably be the same for me when i grow up...(even though i hope it's not....)
it was just funny and eye opening for me to hear all these stories though..and for some reason i was sooo comforted by knowing that maybe my issues are really..just who i am.
i've never wanted or tried to change for anyone but myself.
and i don't plan on it either.
i like the way i am...
i like knowing that my aunt and i are ridiculously similar in our antics and mindset and that there is potential for me to have a great, adventurous, amazing young adult life (whether that includes drinking..or not)...
i just like knowing that maybe..these "issues" i've been told i have..aren't really issues at all..
they're just natural feelings and behaviors...
i don't know.
for some reason...i'm just completely happy right now....and no, i'm not buzzed or drunk...i was home by 11:30 and only had 3 drinks tonight...which were not strong at all..cept my FIRST purple hooter shot.. :D which i'm sure there will be more to come. :D
i'm just happy... i think
for the first time..
in a while....