a day ago...
i stayed strong
almost buckled
not again
never again
it's like i need someone to hold my hand
and tell me not to give in
why am i so dependent on others?
in other news...NOT relating to a topic i wish to finally be rid of...i'm trying to be more active. kat has me on a routine...its been good so far and although results are not evident -- they never seem to ever be..-- i just feel better about myself.
the last step of this bouncing back to the old, more focused me is getting on top of my homework. and surprisingly so...that's all i've really wanted to do lately....is get caught up.
life's getting good...except for me spending my money today...i felt kinda guilty afterward..but other than that...i'd say things are looking up..and HEY! summer is right around the corner...i start to miss it right about this time of year...
i can't wait for our vacation to eastern canada........its coming quick!!!!
btw, my current top 5 songs being played on my itunes at the moment are::
1) Clair De Lune - The AMP Orchestra (original by Claude DeBussy) ( song from the Twilight soundtrack)
2) Bella's Lullaby - Carter Burwell (also from the Twilight soundtrack)
3) Flightless Bird, American Mouth (need i say it again??)
4) New Strings - Miranda Lambert
5) Dead Flowers - Miranda Lambert (sorry, no link to itunes)
sooooo..sleepy...
Please tune your dial to "Light Through the Veins" by Jon Hopkins while reading.
ReplyDeleteThis is where I'm going to write my post that I call "Summer Sucks"
I really don't like Summer, friends go away, dreams go away, jobs enter, life is in a stand still. While I may like the free time, what is free time when there are no friends around to spend it with. I guess this means its time for me to write another allstar script because I'm in a downer mood. That's okay, I need money before I can buy my happiness. I would go visit Cali but there's no money for that right now unfortunately. June 5th is the 48hr Milwaukee Film Festival, those two days will probably be the best two days off my young life. Spending time with friends, friends that actually care enough about me to come to my premiere of AIDs in my video class just because they wanted to :) That felt real good, like really really good, I'm almost tearing up because of that, good things never really happen to me, I've never had close friends like this, the close friends I had in high school were not friends at all, they made fun of me constantly (and I would make fun of other friends just so that I wouldn't be the one picked on at that moment) while I know these friends (Emily, Logan, Gio, Mark) are just kidding around. I have found my niche, my corner, and now it's summer...Logan is going back to Minnesota, Emily is going to Europe, Gio is going to Chicago, Mark is going back home, Greg is staying in Milwaukee...I really does make me tear up when I think that they came to see the premiere because they care and are my friends :)
Sarah you are a wonderful friend too, I would love to meet you soon and Alyssa :P
: ) Greg
now, that song is way too upbeat for anyone to be in a downer mood. ;D
ReplyDeletei'm glad you found your true calling...and that you finally have a good support system of friends now.
i've only known you for the last 5 months or so but you always seem to be very interested in whatever new project you're working on..you're always talking about your friends...you just seem to be happy where you're at right now. :D
as for summer, you'll be fine. the weather is always a lot better than those winter months..espcially for you snow people...anything other than snow has gotta be good news right?
you coming to visit will happen one day..california will still be here..and so will i...and my little sister. :D haha!